Tuesday, November 22, 2011


I dunno what's with all these nightmares I'm having - getting shoot, cut, bleed to death and all horrible things. Even in my sleep, I can't find peace of mind. Oh God! Please have mercy. I'm very thankful that at least now I get to talk with people just to make myself forget I'm forever alone and never mind lols.. Amen.

I thank the omni being that even shit happens most of the time, I still have friends who can deal with my awkwardness and my mental instability. Sometimes I just need to tire myself out of laughing unreasonably. Please bare with me if I talk about so many things. I just need to unwind.

Why won't you take me out to somewhere? lols.. If you only know how badly I need someone to talk to. Maybe we really should, idk or not. Never mind. I'm just a sister after all - at least I got sibling-zoned. Worse than friendzoned. gfhgghdhyujtfdthg hgfjghuyyuiyty. If you happen to understand, I hope you would.. Someday. ... ...

It seems so long like we haven't talked for years that seem forever. I just want to say "Hi", "How are you?" and "I hope you are doing fine". Sorry if I had been too stubborn and sorry that I fucked up and messed everything. I hope you are not hating me now though I know you won't talk to me by any chance again.

I thought I've seen the light but I was mistaken again. :)) I don't care if you get back with your bitch.. HOHOHO, I understand she's just the only choice you have at the moment. Your bad, there will be no way I'd get back on you :P

Thursday, November 17, 2011

forever alone?



I need a lid of that shit. Gimme a lid of that shit. I need a lid of that shit. WAAAA!!! I'm back to myself - alive and loathing. :)) Never mind, I'm getting a life - maybe someday.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

taking a break?

First, I was like "What the fuck?" but I gave it a try because I want to learn the secret.

I watched The Secret and it revealed the Law of Attraction to me. It implies that thoughts make things thus people should not focus on thinking about what they do not want in life but instead they should think more of what they want in life. The key is not thinking about HOW you will get to it but the key is having that inner joy and happiness in life as if you already have it. It's what you think that you attract so you should not think often of what you do not want to attract.

If someone is lost and needing motivation, I suggest you give it a shot. ( I know you will think, "What the fuck, you poser optimist?" ) But there are so many things that you might miss: The Secret to Money, Relationships, Health, Youth, Life and so on - just give it a try. Then after that you can cuss me.. lols

I've been psyching myself away from negative thoughts for quite sometime now and I'm feeling good about it. Maybe the secret just works.

After watching the movie, this quote from Paulo Coelho just came to my thought: "When you really want something, the whole universe conspires in helping you achieve it". Maybe he knows the secret too. :)

Nevermind.. "What the fuck did i type again?".

Thursday, September 29, 2011


AUGUST. I was lost.
SEPTEMBER. I am still lost.

I don't want to give a fuck.
I just couldn't give a fuck.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


life is fair..

there's just so much bull,
in this chaotic world

thank OMNI-being
is in the MIND
just in the mind :P

Monday, June 13, 2011

for ears don't hear

it's not just saying "fuck off"..
sometimes it  takes the courage to  raise your middle finger
against the world of arseholes making a fool of you


Monday, April 25, 2011

when i was younger, before the days i had the fear of dogs..
there was pediophobia and ornithoscelidaphobia..
i was scared of mannequins (thank god not up to this time)
and until now i still fear dinosaurs x.X
strange but i love Land Before Time still